2007 is finally over and i realize that its probably time that i quit fucking around and pull myself together. new years resolutions this year for me are simple and hopefully easy to keep. last night, i realized that this year is going to be a big one and if i do not get my shit together, i will fail. so- this is the game plan.
a) be more descisive in my thoughts and actions. its not fair to myself or anyone else for me to be absentminded or weak when it comes to making descisions that can have lasting affects. i can't afford not to be more resolute.
b) have more respect for myself. people told me i cared too much, and now they say i don't care enough. and now its like, why did i ever listen to anyone in the first place. i have to take care of myself, mentally and physically. that means sleeping regularly, eating more heathily, and ingesting chemicals sparsely. and not killing myself over every tiny detail of my life and crying for hours about it.
c) take better care of my friends. they've babysat me for far too long.
d) read more. i used to read at least two books every week. seriously. maybe its because thats all i did, i had no life. but i was a hell of a lot smarter and in some ways, happier.
and then theres the obligatory lose weight and work harder and blah blah blah.
last night was fun, kind of. it was a lot of weird back and forth, and i didn't have a god damn thing to wear, but it was okay. my parents let me sleep down in oakland... and i didn't even end up staying there. i was there for like two hours. it was an okay two hours, it was a weird dynamic, tommy was telling me he wanted to have butt sex with his boyfriend tonight... in spanish. he is the best drunken spanish speaker ever. rob and i got cheated of time, but it was okay. i also hung with the kings, i am now officially a queen. love it. so after all of this, we went back to rusmir's and there were four of us drunks in a bed, and it was awkward and great. we woke up and had donuts with the boys. now i am home, and i am feasting with the little sister. life is nice.
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